Shay O'Shea



I've managed to abstain for almost a decade, although the craving was always there.  

I got married, bought myself a little house during the boom period, and settled into a life of consumerism and debt, keeping my wanton urges to myself.  

Sometimes, at night, I would secretly view images on my computer, hiding the screen from my wife, not sure what she would think of me.  In real life I was a manager, respectable, with a good responsible job, but I harbored these unmanageable thoughts - a creative lust that made me restless and grouchy and a nightmare to live with.

In an attempt to fill this vice-less void, I began to write short-stories and articles for little-known web-sites and publications (that nobody would ever read), and painted my obsessions with oils and acrylics - the kind of pictures my wife asserts should only be hung above my desk in the spare bedroom, or in the shed. 

I didn't argue. She knew nothing of my old life, how much the images meant to me, or that my repressed visualizations were now becoming a fetish.

To keep my mind from the old addiction, I embraced social normality and all the stupid, pointless shit it entails.  

I rearranged the furniture, went to the gym, mowed the lawn, and went to parties where people talk about their cars.  I once grew a beard in defiance, and though enjoyable for a while, it was no substitution for the fix I truly hankered for. 

I began to buy the magazines again, discreetly burying them in the basket beneath the groceries, because, for some reason, I associated the habit with adolescence - something you can grow out of.  

But I'm not sure you ever do.

In fact, I'm certain that you don't.

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In all seriousness, my wife was amazed (and I assume, a little relieved) that this blog has been the sole focus of my attention these past few months.  She didn't believe I could create such a thing, which is both a compliment and an insult, but not something that overly worries me now that I've gone full geek.  

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This recently rediscovered old hobby was packed away and forgotten about when I started a new life with my girlfriend (now my wife). The old cardboard boxes had remained in the attic for what must be almost a decade, and like everything else, they were covered in cobwebs, dead bugs and dust.


Inside the boxes there were hundreds of painted miniatures, each one carefully wrapped in tissue, looking as though they'd been painted yesterday, and not in the distant days of my youth. 

These models of mine are nothing exceptional (especially having looked around other blogs recently). But I am rather proud of them.  The models in this slideshow are some of my old collection.  I will re-paint some and leave others to compare any progress.


My Old Minis (slide-show)


I hadn't entirely forgotten about the hobby, but time and financial restraints in the real world meant any realistic 40K revival was limited anyway (new house, bills, bills, bills and all the general real life stuff that gets in the way of creativity).

I've decided I might try my hand again, but this time go for a higher quality finish...single, highly-detailed miniatures. Forge World stuff looks amazing. 

I used to finish models in a single sitting. A little more time and effort should surely improve things, but I haven't picked a paintbrush up in a very long time.

Any advice would be appreciated. 

I've told my wife I'm going to sell the old miniatures on Ebay, and I probably will, but I'll keep some of my favorites. I like looking at them. It seems a shame to just forget about them again. 


The truth is, I love the dark imagery and the lore of 40K. I like to look at other people's miniatures, too, and thought maybe someone out there likes to do the same.  Hence the blog.

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